Pushing Through Is Not The Answer

Pushing through because it’s the thing to do, or it’s expected of you, … doesn’t always work.


For the better part of 2+ weeks, my newborn grandson has struggled and I’ve allowed myself the flexibility to be there for him and his parents.


My target date to “get back at it” came and went … it just was not happening.


I have things simmering, but that’s all they are doing in the background. 




Waiting until the time is perfect so the energy of the delivery is perfect and excellent so you can feel the authentic heart from which it is delivered.


And, as I write this, I realize that THIS is what is to drop in right now. Just this. A note to let you know I’ve been distracted with family. 


In the end, completing that task, sending that email, will not matter. 


Being there for family will have mattered.


Where are you putting your energy and...

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The Sneaky Side of Grief

This chair.
It's older than I am.
My dad bought it for my mom when she was pregnant with me.
I don't even remember how it came to be mine? It's weird how sometimes I remember EVERYTHING about an experience, a thing and sometimes I have no idea ....
Why am I sharing this chair with you today? Because it's a weekend. And the last several weekends I have wanted to sit myself in this chair and call my mom.
I used to call her once a week - usually on a weekend. She was so funny in her inconsistencies. Sometimes she would talk and talk and talk. (I would put her on speaker and just listen) And sometimes she would say a few words, too busy or distracted to chat and the conversation would be over in just a few minutes.
I was grateful when she recognized my voice and had delight in hers.
Maybe I miss her more because it's January and I usually flew to Florida around now? (she lived there; I do not!)
I don't know. What I do...
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