I’m sure you’ve heard that expression.
Some breakdowns are massive. Obvious. Ridiculously painful. And usually feel never-ending.
Some, however, are almost unrecognizable. If we are not tuned in, in fact, we may miss it altogether and “just” chalk it up to a bad day.
Some breakdowns feel like you’re standing in the middle of the room looking at your life as it is piled around you — a heap of junk that’s all broken apart and ugly.
Some breakdowns feel like ugh, I am too lazy to give a damn about anything today.
Whichever breakdown it is, it can be comforting to know your breakthrough is soooo close! You can’t push, pull, prod your way there faster. You have to go through the tunnel first.
Did you know that as the butterfly struggles to break free from the cocoon, that if you helped and opened it up just a bit for her, she would die? Her struggle is part of her breakthrough.
The same holds true for you.
Someone can lovingly hold space for your struggle, can reassure you that you are loved and have support, but no one can do it for you.
I’ve been sharing about the Quintessential Woman. Interestingly, last year at this time I was too, and my posts are coming up in my memories on Facebook. (Perhaps it’s a Spring thing — moving into the New)
Today, my memories showed these words:
𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘵𝘰𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘦𝘧𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘲𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳. 𝘔𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘢𝘯𝘪𝘤 𝘤𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘶𝘭𝘢𝘳 𝘮𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘔𝘢𝘨𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴.
𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘍𝘪𝘦𝘭𝘥? 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘣𝘶𝘴𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘤𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴? 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘵?
𝘐𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦. 𝘐𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘗𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦. 𝘐𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘤𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘥, 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘩𝘶𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘶𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘴.
𝘐𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦.
Also interesting is today is a low day for me. It’s more than I am so damn tired of white/gray skies and brown, dirty Spring. I am longing for bright blue skies and beautiful new, green grass. I am longing for something new to birth itself into my heart and life.
As I read the words I penned a year ago, I asked myself: 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘍𝘪𝘦𝘭𝘥? 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘥? And today I am giving myself a Pause so I may discover…
Perhaps you are in this space, too.
Perhaps you’d like to explore what you are to birth next?
I’d like to introduce you to an aspect of yourself that may help you do just that.
𝙈𝙚𝙚𝙩 “𝙃𝙚𝙧” ~ 𝙖 𝙎𝙖𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙙 𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙚𝙚𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙌𝙪𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙖𝙡 𝙎𝙚𝙡𝙛 will do just that.